Sitting here eating my Chicken Sante Fe sandwich from Starbucks accompanied with a tall pumpkin spice steamer I contemplate everything at once.
I want to go school. What if I fail? What if I don't want to help people? What if it costs so much money and I can't pay it back? That's it right there. What if I can't pay it back?
I have to.
Where does this come from? My chronic disease, past life poverty and my chronic pain to name a few factors of the fear.
What does this freedom bring?
More time to manage all of the above and get so good at it that it doesn't matter.
Create more art.
Be a better blogger.
That was always the goal when I started this blog, to be a better writer. Write more, create more and share more of what I do.
I think I can do some of that now. :-)
Well I'm unemployed.
I'm going back to school.
I have goals.
I can do this.